Well for those of you that didn't know I've been at camp for the past couple months, what I've learned over the course of the summer is kinda up on my blog but to tell all of it would take a lot more than a blog could ever say. But now that I'm out of camp and out of an environment of growth and discipleship, life's already fallen into a rut and I find myself wondering what's next?
Well I know what's next, right? I'm heading off to college for my junior year at Cornerstone University. But right now I'm wondering what's beyond that, or ever what's between then and now. I simply feel like I'm doing nothing and I have nothing of worth to do, sitting in front of a computer writing, working, and playing video games. Grand stuff. I'm just feeling so useless right now. But I'm not. That's someone talking to me that I shouldn't be listening to. As soon as I surrender to the fact I can't do anything until college starts up I am cutting God off from working in my life and being open to His promptings and directions.
So what can I do now? Sitting here with little ability to get into the outside world seems like a place that I can't reach out from. But that too is a lie. I have one of the best ways to change the world around me right here, prayer. I have an audience before The King of Kings through the Holy Spirit when I pray. I can move mountains, change hearts, and strengthen others all through prayer! Why do I think I am somehow doing something worthwhile when I'm running around busy with work than when I'm on my knees interceding for those around me? It's because I like seeing things get done, and honestly prayer for others doesn't usually bring instant or sometimes even visible results. But this summer has shown me how much prayer is a completely fundamental part of every believer's life. And not just praying for a meal or sending up a prayer for a friend, but pouring your soul out to the Lord pleading and interceding for those around you. I've never felt so alive as I do when I spend a good twenty minutes pouring my heart out for someone before God. The feeling that you're standing before the God of the universe and laying open your heart to Him is amazing, but what's even better is that at the end I know He heard me and will answer my prayer in ways more wonderful than I could ever imagine.
Wow, and I haven't even touched on encouraging others who are pushing through the same as you are. I'll leave that for another day, but if we all as a body started interceding for each other and encouraging each other would we ever run into times when we're feeling useless? Quite probably, yes; however, I would think that no matter where we were God would show us just how much we're needed and how much He's using us even when we feel like we're doing nothing.
So to close this up, leaving camp is hard. I'm no longer easily seeking God and I no longer have an 'easy' goal in sight. It takes time, intentionaality, and the willingness to do some pretty radical things to stay on fire for Him after leaving camp, but it's possible, He's showing me how this very moment and I hope He's showing you too. Because no matter where we are God can use us in amazing ways that we may not see at the moment or perhaps ever, but if you're following Him be assured He's using you.
Surviving the Post Campocalypse,
Joshua
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